black trenchcoats and cat shoes

She walks in beauty, like the night Of cloudless climes and starry skies; And all that's best of dark and bright Meet in her aspect and her eyes: Thus mellow'd to that tender light Which heaven to gaudy day denies.

Friday, January 28, 2005

The Peach
I think this is pretty acurate...*scratches head*.Although, it's pretty unnacurate about the whole not sure on settling down part...maybe the past few years but then again, who wants to spend the rest of their life with an unbalanced person?

also I took this little test here and got this

You are Purple Tiger, who is always cheerful and active.
You are well-liked by every one.
You give an impression of a girl with pure heart.
You are kind and generous to everyone around you.
You are rather optimistic, but may experience unsettlement by physical effect.
You are good at taking care of the others and can be friend with anybody.
Your relationship tends to be associating closely with small number of people, and that number increases eventually.
The way you express things may be too flashy and exaggerated.
You tend to have too self-conscious side.
But you are a hard working person who act and move in your own pace surely and consistently.
Your observation and ways of thinking is calm and objective.
You don't get influenced by emotions and atmosphere.
You are calculative enough to measure the distance between yourself and the other person.
You also possess your own ideal world, and trying to accomplish it too hastily may lead to misunderstandings.
Nevertheless, the way you pursue your potentiality gives a favorable impression to others.
Once married, you will show great motherly feelings.
You will create a living style that takes in account your personal interests

I'm relising that for some reason morbid art interests me. I know for a fact I'm not suicidal/masochistic(however you spell it)/sadist/mentally deragned I just find it facinating. I guess maybe it's from being around my uncal as a kid and all the bones and stuff in my dad's office. Horror film's/movie magic with a lack of disgust and fear of the dead I guess is what led to this. What I think is funny is that there are many "normal" people out there who are considered crazy or deranged by the average man because of this. It's funny how society's ideal morals effect our judgment of people. If they like having sex their a nympho, if they like skulls and wear black their morbid or "goths", if you play D&D you're a nerd, if you play football you're a jock (which also brings along hte title of asshole for some people). It's this never ending loop of labeling. If you think about it though, labeling goes back to tribes with labels of cheif, warrior, child bearer, etc. It's in our blood I guess. Even I've been subject to labeling but it's very rare. I guess it's because I've met so many people with so many different interests and personalities that I really dont see a person as just a jock or a geek...their just people who have differnt ideas and hobbies. I wish the rest of the world would see that.


I'm really looking forward to valentines day this year. I'm actually more excited about it then xmas or my birthday. I guess it's because of the surprise of what Dan's going to get me and how Dan will react to my present. I got Pablo's opinion on the gift and he though it was really nice and looked nice too. I'm happy though cause it's the same one I saw for $100 on another site except very significantly priced down...but not to much that it would be considered a cheap gift. The man I love needs to be showered with gifts equal to his amazingness...especially on Valentines day (although I wish I had more money so I could really spoil him)!^~


p.s.-playing Silent Hill 3 to the Sims 2 neighborhood theme or the Bad Touch by the Blood Hound gang makes the game significantly unscarry (specially when you have the Douglas No Pants chat selected).

Thursday, January 27, 2005

this morning I woke up with such a heavy cloud of doom driftin over me.

I don't know why but I was really depressed. Then I relised I was suffering morning Dan deprivation. *sigh* I miss him alot. I've been able to stuff back all my sadness and kinda tame it but every once and a while it gets the best of me.

I'm also slowly trying to tame my jelousy. It's alot better then it was in the beginning but I do admit it's one of my more major flaws. I guess its because I'm so afraid of loosing him or some other girl trying to tempt him. I know he loves me and that he doesnt want to leave me but just imagining another girl trying to pull a move on him makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up.

But ne way's its off to class for me...I hope my drawing class is better then pablo described it.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Napoleon
Napoleon Dyanamite
(Please rate my quiz)


Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
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yea thats right.....freaking sweet!

oh here's my myspace page!xD
http://profiles.myspace.com/users/6495357
(join the cult...now!!)

Dansoc144: i really do want to spend teh rest of my life with you
Dansoc144: i'm getting all teary and such now
DragonAngelN6: meep
DragonAngelN6: no tears love
DragonAngelN6: Im right here
Dansoc144: but there semi happy tears
Dansoc144: i just want to be with you dammit
DragonAngelN6: but but if u cry then Im gonna cry
Dansoc144: i just want to love you
Dansoc144: hold you
Dansoc144: and take care of you
Dansoc144: even when you get all old

reasons why Im so in love ^^

Monday, January 24, 2005

perusing blogs cause Im bored. Found thus in Dan's blog and I just couldn't help but giggle ^^:

DragonAngelN6: mweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Dansoc144: is that your mating call ;-)
DragonAngelN6: lol
DragonAngelN6: yes
DragonAngelN6: that and my purr
Dansoc144: the male Dan senses that his female wants to mate
Dansoc144: watch now as he tries to seduce her with his dance
Dansoc144: ::dances the dance de seduction::
DragonAngelN6: lol!
DragonAngelN6: *gasp!*
DragonAngelN6: *twitch*
Dansoc144: now watch as the female decides weither she accepts the dance or not
DragonAngelN6: *Twitch* O_-
DragonAngelN6: *squee!*
DragonAngelN6: *tackle*
DragonAngelN6: lol
Dansoc144: note by the sound, and the tackling that the female is ready to mate
DragonAngelN6: *Ravages neck*
DragonAngelN6: xD
Dansoc144: ah a very common aspect of dan mating
Dansoc144: the female often finds a spot on the neck and latches onto it
Dansoc144: thus turing the dan into a very suseptible mode
Dansoc144: he is now hers and the mating begins
Dansoc144: ::porno music::
DragonAngelN6: lol

I love my man ^^

On another note...I really need to loose weight. Every other girl I've come across that's 5'-5'3" is like 90 pounds. Im close to 125. I feel so bloated...-__-

little news update.

added a new counter on the right hand side!
(the blog pet I had turned rabid and wasnt keeping count)

today is Dan's first set of Monday classes...
Good luck love!^^
(have fun with 8 hours of student-ness) ^^**

Sunday, January 23, 2005

I relised something...I am a obsessive internet window shopper, lol.

Every time I get bored I got to google and look up anime or go to ebay. I've been noticing lately that I end up perusing wedding gowns, houses, and furniture sites alot more then I used to. I guess it's cause of my mind state. I'm pretty much ready to settle down and stop being a nutty teenager. I like being more peacefull then roudy and loud (although beer and xbox live is still appealing to me, as well as D&D insanity and dirty jokes). Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's my hormons slowing down, maybe it's "the love bug" as Joyce, a family friend, once said. I really don't know...but I kinda like it.

Ben broke something stupid again. He says it was a "Freak sleding accident". I'm just wondering how you fracture you're collar bone sledding. I would of guessed his arm maybe his head. I don't plan on asking him any furthur on how it happened because I don't feel like calling him an idiot...unless he starts bitching to me that I dont do his hair or make him soup or something like that.

Looking for soemthing special to get Dan this valentines day. I feel like it's one of my obligations to spoil him senslessly this year. I just wish some things were under $200. That and I need to figure out his ring size...don't ask, I wont give you an answer. xP

In other news my grandfather has been abusing my grandmother to the point where she claws at the door downstairs for help. I feel bad for my sister and my parents. Mostly for my father. I don't know how he can keep all this bottled up inside of him. It must be tearing him to shreds. What amazes me the most is that he still
manages to look his father in the face. If any of my parents pulled the stuff my grandfather pulled on us, I don't know how I'd deal. I'd probably have to seek some major psychological help to get me through it.

I seems that there are no breaks durring February. This is concerning me because I made a gyno appointment durring the supposed break I thought we had and I need that appointment so I can get more birth control. I hope when I call that there still will be open days in March to schedual. Another thing that also bugs me is the lack of flexability in reschedualing at this office. I have to wait a month and a half to get another appointment if I accidentally miss one. This is a big probalem because the times I'm home usually dont last that long so I'd have to wait 2 months. I guess next break I should start looking for an alternative doctor.

You are intelligent, wise, cunning, and dangerous.
You are the rose. You put up with idiots as
well as dogs put up with squirrels. Generally
laid back and almost harmless, but when
something sets you off, others had better duck
and cover.


What plant are you?
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