-30 degrees celcius, frost bite warnings, one woman dead from being out in the cold, and my school is open.

If you haven't noticed, I didn't go. Mainly because I think its moronic to think kids (who usually never encounter this weather on a regular basis) are going to go to school. I got a call from one of my friends from Boces telling me there were 5 kids in the entire art department out of the usual 15. I guess the schools dont relise that it is colder then yesterday, and that ice has frozen over all the roads.

Besides the bitter, ass numbing weather, things have been going good. Gotten over Dan finnaly (can't beleive Patty would go out w/ him after he pulled all that shit on her...again). Doing all my Parsons stuff and waiting for my new Cooper Union hometest. Today I'm starting on my lulu cos (finaly) and once the weather clears up I'm going to go bake my sculpty. Other then that I'm waiting for the guys to either call or go online and update me on the going ons today. I'm off to go bug my mom...AWAY!xD




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I took a mental health day today...kinda.

My stomic was acting up all night so I got no sleep. My parents let me stay home from school so I got ot relax my brain, somewhat. Every time I think of it it still hurts. It's not just like a little pain, its like some one punched me in the chest and then I start crying again. I've kinda got a hold of it but after a while it all builds up and the pain gets worse.

Tryed eating this afternoon and things went ok at first and it was back to last night. I've been sticking to tea and trying to keep my mind off of Dan. Tea seems to be working, keeping my mind off of Dan...not going to well. AIM seems to be keeping me somewhat sane as well as music. I'm gonna go play ddr to see if it raises my spirits...

Still can't shake off this sorrow.

I feel like I'm falling into a deep hole. I managed to eat lunch yesterday, and then suffered severe stomic pains later on. I don't feel like moveing, or seeing any of my friends. I don't want to call Dan but I want to, and I dont want to see Dan but inside me I am wishing to be back in his arms again. I'm slowly decaying. My sister keeps telling me to just let him go. If my brain didn't constantly try and problem solve, and if my heart wasn't so foolish, I'd probably never fallen into this mess.

I tryed playing ddr yesterday. It kept my mind off every thing for a short while. Then I began thinking about it all again and I lost my interest in it. I also was going to go out with my friend Ann yesterday, but I got this ugly feeling in my gut and told her I wasn't up to going out.

I still keep hearing his voice pleading with me. At first I thought it would help me get over him, but it just makes me sader and lonlier. I haven't gone a day w/out crying. My brain is so jumbled and confused. I know every thing is 1 vs. 20 but I still keep trying to weigh every thing in his favor. Why can't every thing go back, back b4 I suspected him messing around, back to when we first slept together. When I was happy and secure.