Every man I know is obsessed with their x-gf's.

I am feeling more alone then I've ever felt before in my life. Mainly because I know no one wants me. I really wish I could just fucking die right now. Unreturned love hurts

up and down and up and down again.....

yea thats right, feelin down as usual (the emotional trend continues).
Dan isnt telling me any thing mainly because I think he's afraid of me going into a depression again (its going to happen any way, nobody loves me). I think he's just acting all nice to me so he doesn't feel bad for causeing me greif. I just dont know any more. Every time I think about love I get this cold empty feeling, like a need to be embraced. Unfortunetly there is no one there to caress me and tell me they love me. It hurts being like this. College is so far away, and the gruleing days of my lonely summer are just ahead. For once I am not looking forward to the summer.

HixBlitz00 (7:56:06 PM): i can't wait to see "oh my. that hixon kid is sooo sexy and such a gamer! what a mix! he's a dreamboat"
DragonAngelN6 (7:56:18 PM): lol
DragonAngelN6 (7:56:28 PM): *evil laughter*

ask and you shall receive...........hahahahahaha!

What an amazing weekend.

Im glad Brian came back. All my sadness went with his arrival. Two days I have spent with the guys hanging out at Brian's playing ddr (Brian and Dan concouring the double pad together). Played D&D last night till I passed out and missed hte last parts of the quest. Had a meaningfull talk with Dan and Andrew (funny how well he has both our personalities down). It felt like old times, now all we need is Duggan and life will be complete. That and for Dan to get his shit together....
Another reason why I dread this week....