up and down and up and down again.....

yea thats right, feelin down as usual (the emotional trend continues).
Dan isnt telling me any thing mainly because I think he's afraid of me going into a depression again (its going to happen any way, nobody loves me). I think he's just acting all nice to me so he doesn't feel bad for causeing me greif. I just dont know any more. Every time I think about love I get this cold empty feeling, like a need to be embraced. Unfortunetly there is no one there to caress me and tell me they love me. It hurts being like this. College is so far away, and the gruleing days of my lonely summer are just ahead. For once I am not looking forward to the summer.