DragonAngelN6 (10:59:05 PM): are you happy now you jack ass?
pyrobleh (10:59:13 PM): About what?
DragonAngelN6 (10:59:30 PM): about telling every one
DragonAngelN6 (10:59:37 PM): when its none of their buisness
pyrobleh (10:59:44 PM): It's just another thing to add to my list of accomplishments collected today.
DragonAngelN6 (10:59:54 PM): oh, accomplishemnts?
DragonAngelN6 (11:00:04 PM): hey guess what I got to do Nina
DragonAngelN6 (11:00:08 PM): woooo hey congrats
DragonAngelN6 (11:00:46 PM): you think thats going to make them forget that your an asshole and focus on me?
DragonAngelN6 (11:01:31 PM): that its somehow going to redeem yourself?
pyrobleh (11:02:11 PM): Honestly, this is a burden on my shoulders that I really, really don't like having there. I actually regret, for the first time in my life, doing something.
DragonAngelN6 (11:02:15 PM): I told you I was confused, I told you that it was a mistake
DragonAngelN6 (11:02:23 PM): but in all honesty
DragonAngelN6 (11:02:42 PM): telling people in a fucking chat room
DragonAngelN6 (11:03:11 PM): and getting uppity about it
DragonAngelN6 (11:03:22 PM): you make me sick
DragonAngelN6 (11:03:35 PM): you are a pig
DragonAngelN6 (11:04:02 PM): you lure confused girls in with your money and charm
DragonAngelN6 (11:04:21 PM): I told you it was a bad idea and you persisted
DragonAngelN6 (11:04:35 PM): I let go
DragonAngelN6 (11:04:50 PM): I told you no
DragonAngelN6 (11:04:53 PM): you persisted
DragonAngelN6 (11:05:29 PM): you wrote me poetry
DragonAngelN6 (11:06:00 PM): in all honesty it was very nice and yes I thought you were perfect
DragonAngelN6 (11:06:10 PM): I thought Don was perfect too
DragonAngelN6 (11:06:25 PM): you both turned out to be pigs
DragonAngelN6 (11:06:37 PM): you kiss and tell, he akes advantage of drunk girls
DragonAngelN6 (11:08:23 PM): I don't understand your whole fucking thing on hitting on girls that are taken either
DragonAngelN6 (11:08:33 PM): haven't you learned with me that its stupid?
DragonAngelN6 (11:10:20 PM): Also what really gets me, what really really gets me is the fact that you don't fucking no when to quit
DragonAngelN6 (11:10:53 PM): when we were all relaxing on bradens bed and you kept getting close to me I had to pretend that I was going upstairs to get you the fuck away from me
DragonAngelN6 (11:11:29 PM): get a fucking clue once and a while
DragonAngelN6 (11:12:48 PM): you are so fucking creepy
DragonAngelN6 (11:13:58 PM): and honestly Ben I am very glad to get this off my shoulders
DragonAngelN6 (11:14:06 PM): because now i don't need to pretend I like you
DragonAngelN6 (11:14:23 PM): you creep me out
DragonAngelN6 (11:14:28 PM): you need to get a clue
DragonAngelN6 (11:15:04 PM): you need to spend your dads money on maybe some lessons on common sense then a sports car you'll crash in two seconds
DragonAngelN6 (11:15:14 PM): eat some food
DragonAngelN6 (11:15:22 PM): stop doing stupid shit to impress people
DragonAngelN6 (11:15:31 PM): and stay the fuck away from me

Yes people me and Ben did some stuff back in september like every one knows. Congratulations, I was confused. EVERY ONE KNOWS THIS.I'm sorry that I didn't tell any one, in all honesty I didn't think it was any ones buisness. Whatever. I FUCKING LOVE DAN. He is every thing in my life that I've ever wanted and honestly, to hear him cry, to know he's sad or depressed makes me feel like Im going to vomit all over myself. There was a reason why I shut him out with Don and that was because I thought it would make me forget him. You know what? It didn't. Every day I wondered what was going on with him and his crying would fill my mind and I'd feel like I was going to vomit. So I was sick alot. When I found out he was seeing Patty again I almost died. I thought it was the end. I don't know how he even took me back after the shit I've put him through and in all honesty, after he reads this, I hope he still loves me. I'm sorry I wanted to wait till you calmed down with Don to tell you, I should have told you sooner. I bet that when I blow my fucking brains out if he does break up with methat you'll sit back and smile, Ben. "yea thats the chick that I bagged, I took advantage of her confusion, yea I knew she was happily dating another guy but hey!I got into her pants.". Yea ok sure I came onto you? Right if you think thats what will make you happy in your mind keep telling yourself that. I really felt sorry for you in the begining. All your friends back home hated you, all the girls hated you. Now I see why. "Your the reason why I came to Alfred" that worked for all of two seconds untill you told Laura the same shit lol. Now you just bitch about her sex life because she told you off. I should have just told you were a creep instead of trying to be nice to you. You pull people in with your poor me act when in reality, there is nothing wrong with you. Every thing is in your world Ben, like I told you before. You think a girl is going to help you? No fucking way dude. It's time you relise that people aren't gonna do shit for you every time you fucking fart the wrong way. If you think a girl is going to solve all your lifes problems, get a fucking clue. Do you think their gonna do your every bidding too because your too afraid or you don't want to fuck it up?


You know what? You were lousy. You sucked at kissing, you didnt know what your hands were doing and lol, your tiney. Sorry to inform you but you suck at trying to get jiggy with it. Also we didnt have sex. I hope you didn't lie and tell people that jerkoff. You didn't even know what a fucking himen was untill I explained it to you.

Dan is absolutely the most amazing person in bed. In all honesty if he wanted to he could be in porno, but he's too modest. He never tryed to get me by showing off his wealth, or promising me cruises and shit. He told me what he thought, and he kept it real. REAL. Yes, as in down to earth, as in how to fucking survive without getting a $500 allowance from your daddy. He doesn't take advantage of me and yes, he did do some stupid shit in the begining but I put it behind me. I've did my share of stupid shit to him too and you know what? The pain I've caused him makes me wish that I could go back in time and make things different. But no, I can't fucking do that. All I can do is show him that I love him and show him that he can trust me again. You know what that kindof determination that takes?You know how much will power goes into groveling back to a person? You know how much LOVE that takes? More then anything you can phanthom. Every day I wake up and I look over at the pictures on my wall and thank my fucking stars that I have some one that loves me this much. I give up partying and being rediculous for him. And you know what? I don't mind it. Yes I do get bitched at because I don't go out drinking or hang out alot. You know what? I don't give a flying fuck. I don't need to go to a party. I have the guy I want, I have every thing I can ever ask for.

I want to live the rest of my life with Dan. I want to marry him, father his children, and grow old with him. I want to be with him through all the bad times and the good. I want to be by his side through the shit and I only expect the same from him. If I had to take a bullet for one person, it would be him. He doesn't look at me as a pair of boobs and a vagina, or a short little girl that can be taken advantage of. I'm Nina Maria Russo in his eyes. I'm not a way to remove his problems, I'm not a thrill, I'm not an object or somthing that sits in the corner and looks pretty. To me, he's one of the few people that have still stuck by my side even if I did something stupid.

So yea, happy now? I told every one. And you know what? Whatever! Fuck you, stop looming over people and hitting on other dude's chicks. Also that comment that you made about Long Islanders being insensitive ass holes and now your post about people in this area being uncultured hicks because they don't speak Ben...yea, up yours shit face.